journey of faith.

on sunday, our family and my uncle's family decided to pick up my grandmother from unionvilla to take a visit to her future grave...it really teared my heart to be doing that so early but i was amazed. my grandmother's been suffering through alzheimer's disease...for the past 10 years of her life....and it's been hard on our family... i remember those childhood days..well even during adolescence wen i wud wake up at 7 am due the squeaking of my door being opened by grandma and opening all the curtains in my room...and i wud get so annnoyed..then she wud come up to me to ask what day it was....she wud ask.."what day is it today?"...and i wud just yell "SATURDAY"...AND then she wud repeat it like 5 times..and then 1 min later..she wud ask again..those days still sting mee these days..how i was so cruel and wow. how i never understood. but now i feel so weak in the knee whenever i get the chance to see her..which is rare....i'm just amazed by her..how strong she is....her happiness in life..her faith in God...just totally EVEN though she suffers through this disease forgetting what happened literally 1 min ago. but yeah....it brings tears to my heart..everytime i see her being so joyful and singing old hymns that she wud always tell us to sing with her every wednesday with me and my sister....we wud pray, then sing 3 of her favourite hymns, then she wud preach us about PSALMS 1 ...every time we had our little gathering :) i am just amazed at what my grandmother has taught me. how happy she was....to be in HIs hands....no matter in what circumstances....even though her disease is severly geting worse..as in she doestn' remmeber me anymore.....i'm just amazed how she still knows that God is watching out for her...isn't that amazing? wen we went to visit her potential grave.....she KNEW..where we were...and she thanked the Lord and thanked us......and it was amazing to se eher read the korean bold words that were on her RIP stone.......JUST AMAZED. with such confidence..and she thanked us. and lalughedd.......and on her ride back home...she kept singingin and PRAIsing GOD ..singing those 3 hymns and hcristmas songs all over again tilll the end of our journeyy..which was 30 min....an dhten praying for us in the car...then reapeating hymns...i'm just so thankful to have a grandma who has so much faith in the lord. just amazing how she knows the lord is with her...even though she can't recall things that happened hin her life a min ago or even a year ago..but she knows that her Almighty God is with her always......no matter in what circumstances..he's there...now my granmda is 89 and time's going so sswiftly....but in the end...i konw that she will be in God's hands for all the work she has done throughout her life.. just amazed by her life history...i still remember those days wen i was 4-6 years old..where we wud go to a random street or the subway...being with her and handing out little flyers to random strangers about Christ's love for us..still those clear images...even though she didn't knoww any english...she did it with confidence ....i stilll remember...i still remember.....it's really sad how i treated her as i got older..but she's taught me so much and i come to realize to just be there for my grandma..i wanna go visit her ..be with her..as much as i can..that's my hope for this summer..visit unionvilla....ever so often..to just be there..ato make her happy.....bc i know it's hard for my parents..esp my mom..but yeahh. she's totally been there for me and now it's my turn before it's too late............i love you Grandma with ALL my heart <3

love,
lois.

posted by lois @ 11:12 PM